I Try So Hard...

Do you find yourself saying this?I say it all the time. "I try so hard!" When it's the end of the day and I am tired by everything, I find these words falling out of my mouth over and over. I try to be a good wife. I try to be a good mother. I try to be a good homemaker. I try to be a writer. I try to be crafty. I try. I try. I try.Remember this quote from Yoda in "The Empire Strikes Back"?

No. Try not. Do... or do not. There is no try.

So based on that, I don't do anything. But of course, I do. I am always doing something. Just all too often, it feels like it never comes to a fruition. I have a house full of rooms that are almost clean, closets that are not at all almost organized, and a pile of half-written recipe plans, schedules, and goal settings.I have digital folders filled with half written or hurriedly written stories and essays. I have twelve different shutterfly photo books begun and stacks of my children's writings and art waiting to be framed. And don't get me started on the multiple "Drafts" sitting on this blog!More than any of that, however, I have a heart and mind filled with so much I want to do. I have always been this way and it has always seemed that impediment to a life of my dreams has been time. If I could just get more time, I could make everything I want to happen, happen. And when I was in my 20's and even in my 30's, this gave me hope. Someday in the future, I will have the time I need.I am in my 40's now, and this most precious of all commodities "time" has not suddenly appeared. I cannot live the next 40+ (hopefully) years expecting that time will bend to my will. Given this fact of physics, how do I stop trying and start doing?That is the question.So where is Yoda when I need him?